Friday, November 19, 2010

Spread it around

Today I was reading 2 Timothy in my bible and it really just reinforced everything I have been trying to learn. It is Paul writing to his son Timothy and just in the first two chapters Paul is telling Timothy how he should live his life as a Chirstan and how he should be spreading the gospel. It really just hit home on how I need to be in my daily walk as far as spreading the gospel. So often I think we as Chritans believe that its not our job to teach others about Christ. It the job of the Pastor or someone who is trained in that area. This is wrong it is all of our jobs as Christans to lead others to Christ and to show others who Christ is by how we live our lives. Its scary to think that 4.5 billion people in the world today have never heard of Christ and wont be saved from hell. I mean honestly what are we doing??!!! Everyone deseves to know who Christ is and its ALL Christans job to tell them. Lately I have been called to try and spread the gospel to Leahs family, who dont any realationship at all. This is feels scary to me because I dont know what to say or do? How can I as a 19 year old kid try to lead these people to God? But in 2 Timothy 1:7 it says "God has not given us a spirit of timidity, but of power, of love and of self-dicipline." With a God like mine who can be agianst me? I just have to trust the Lord and know that he will tell me what to do.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Yesterday I think that life will go on and I will meet someone else someday. But today I feel as if this empty void in my life will never be filled. I know God is trying to teach me a lesson on being content in him and not in a person. But this lesson is difficult to learn and I cant imagine any other girl by my side except the one I lost. She loved everything about me, my hair, the way I walked, my smile, my voice. She even loved the way I opened a jar of peanut butter. This makes me sit here and wonder "How can I EVER find that kind of love with anyone else??" I guess I just have to trust God that he will provide and give me what I need. God has promised me that he will take care of me and I must believe in him and do what he tells me to. I must move on and I will find another, but until that day I must be content in the Lord. "Many are the the plans of a man's heart but it is the Lords purpose that prevails." Proverbs 19:21

Wednesday, November 17, 2010


Hello my name is J.W. recently I have had a huge turning point in my life with the passing of my girlfriend Leah Ward. This has been a very difficult change for me and I feel like life would be so much easier if it had a manual. Well as we all know life does not have a manual and God does not lay his plan out for us to look at. I was recently discussing this with my mother and she suggested I get a blog as an outlet for all Im going through. So here it is, the blog that will help me express my thoughts and maybe help someone else in the process. Life has no manual, but God still has a plan.